discouraged

This week has been very difficult. The past eight months of sickness have been very hard and especially the last six months of being limited in my walking and enduring much pain in my knees and feet in addition to the rest of my health issues. Beyond the question of why this had to happen, I keep asking how long is this going to last? I continue to have hope it will get better when improvement shows itself... no matter how slight. This past week, however, I have backtracked. I am now feeling how I was feeling five months ago. Constant pain. Each day is worse. I can't sleep, can't walk, can't sit without pain. We have racked our brains to try to remember if I did something different last week that would have caused this reaction. The only change we can think of is the weather. The weather did change drastically a couple of times the last week or so, but I don't understand why it would cause such extreme pain and continue now that the weather has seemingly stabilized again. I can understand a couple of bad days because of the weather - but not such a set back.

I was encouraged by the improvement I had seen over the past six months even if it was slight. I can't imagine having to start over and go through all of that hard work again. What if this is going to be a way of life? It is hard to keep hope alive after such an enormous set back.